Stomach ache

 Since my elementary to college, the silliest reason I gave to skip class is headache and stomach ache. I have to give this two reasons whether I am really sick or not but yeah I often get headache. At one point in my life I want to be health conscious and avoid many things which hampers my health but then I tend to forget that when I am in a good condition. Headache became much frequent to me and I lived with headache almost every day. I look at a screen I get headache, I stay in a crowd I get headache, I sleep less I get headache,I sleep more I get headache and many other things trigger my headache. However, the best thing about getting sick is the love and care that I get from my loved ones. Thank you everyone for helping me when I am sick 🤢. It's been few days that I couldn't sleep well at night and though I wanted to sleep in the morning I have to wake up because I have to go to class. Did I get insomnia?. 

Omg, actually I wanted to write about stomach pain which I am having right now as I am writing this. So it was already midnight when I lay down in my bed after washing my clothes, taking bath, cleaning my room and praying for few minutes. I lied down, put my head on my pillow and tried to sleep but as usual I couldn't but the worst thing was I got a weird stomach pain. I can bear the pain and simultaneously I am also feeling sick that it was 3.44 am when I checked the clock but my eyes are wide open. I slowed down the fan before I came to bed and as I am suffering from stomach ache I wanted to put off completely but I don't have the courage to wake up and do so. 

A I write this, I am blaming the fan for my stomach pain and also not wanting to put it off because their sound is more soothing than whatever I will hear if I put them off. I get emotional that when my headache leaves me alone, stomach ache accompanied me. I feel so tired and sick physically, mentally I am stressing out so much that I have so many works to be done and emotionally I am so sick of all this diseases accompanying me in every single step of my life. I missed many important session because they need my attention that I have to prioritize them. I wanted to do my works in the morning because I want to rest in the night but I don't even get an enough time to get ready for the class forget about opening my laptop. So these things I wanted to scream outside but I don't have an energy to put off my fan so I will bear the pain for...till the pain leaves me 🥺.

Friday, 27th May. 3.56 am.